染发

刚刚心血来潮，去超级市场买了loreal的染发剂(rm35) 蛮贵的， 然后叫表弟帮我染发。大姐也一起染，因为还剩很多。 redbrown colour......可是好像失败了，因为看不出！！！！ 哈哈。
表弟这次有点失败，可能我是第一个被他染的， 因为他还没毕业还在学着头发，所以我也变了白老鼠。可是洗几次后应该会有颜色了吧，因为我买的颜色本来就很暗的，不想染太亮原因是我那两条黑黑的眉毛！！！！！ 每次都是因为这两条眉毛，弄到我染发时都很不适合！所以这次就染一些很难看得出有染的颜色.....（痒，就是想染） LOL

感情

刚看完烈火雄心3，赶了三天，终于看完了.....
从这套戏里面学到的就是感情不可以勉强，没有谁对谁错，要怪就怪老天牵错线吧！
说真的，这个道理谁都懂吧，可是真正能做到得有几个？
其实蛮佩服里面的“阿牛”，他对感情可说是太执着了，应该很多人都很讨厌他在这套戏里的角色吧。可是我本身还蛮欣赏他的，也很了解他为什么会这样子。可是欣赏归欣赏，我对感情可没这么执着啊！ 嘻嘻！

最近看完每一套剧都会让我不知不觉的想起她....
应该是说怀念有她的日子吧。虽然和她在一起的日子并不久（应该是说很短）。
跟她在一起的这段日子她让我感觉到爱情的甜蜜和痛苦，
说实在的，以前的女友都没有给我过这样强烈的感觉。
很奇怪，人生就是这样，你越在乎的东西，你就会越快失去它。
很想念她跟我撒娇时候的那个嘴脸，
很想念她的野蛮（她生气起来不是开玩笑的啊，哈哈），
很想念她抱着我的时候，
很想念她那双手的味道（我也不明白，别问我，应该是变态吧！哈哈），
很想念每天早上6.30am给她morning call叫她醒，
很想念晚上睡觉前跟她讲电话然后gdnite kiss，
很想念她要我跟她say sorry的时候（尾音一定要拉长长而且要像女孩子的发音）lol，
一切的一切都很想念.........
虽然是这样，可是是真的只有想念而已，因为我已经放下了，不过在寂寞的时候难免会想起以前开心的日子吧。

跟她的记忆都在这张照片里，我会把它收起来，因为这些都是开心的回忆啊

其实每个人都会经历这些东西，是看早还是晚，而且思想也会从这些经历变成熟，这些都是人长大必须经过的路程，虽然苦，可是也要记得有甜过。
不要怪别人，要感谢他们，因为他们让你更懂得去爱别人爱自己。
前些日子跟她分了过后，说不伤心是骗人的，我的心又不是铁做的怎么可能会不伤心呢？
可是开心也要做人不开心也要做人，所以我当然选择开心的去面对!
不适合就继续找到适合的人为止嘛，而且我还有很多事等着我去做啊。
说不定已经有一个心地善良的大美女在等着我呢？哈哈
所以很快的我也不再伤心了，可能是个性天生乐观吧，所以才会这样快放得下。
不是说我不爱她，我爱（loved），可是已经是过去式了。在这里面，我也学了很多。既然她做了选择所以我必须尊重她，让她去，希望她快乐。也只能这样，不然我还能怎样？！哈哈

有一些人就像“阿牛”这样，对感情太执着，不懂得放下，所以才会导致自己不开心和痛苦，甚至自甘堕落。其实又何必呢？ 不是你的，就是不是你的。是你的到最后还是你的。
执着只会让你自己更加痛苦罢了。即使被你留下来了又怎样？
感情一旦破裂了就完了，你有多爱他/她也是没用的，放生它就是帮你们解决事情～

虽然有时很想找个人陪找个人靠，很想有一段稳定的爱情，累了谈短暂的爱情。
可是我懂现在的我还没能力去爱人，要遇到对的人也很难，所以现在的我只想快快把书读完，找份安定的工作，然后安顿下来以后才谈感情这种东西，一切顺其自然，不会再刻意的去“找”所谓的爱情了。
当然如果遇到的话我也不会刻意去避开它 :)))

朋友啊，人要活的潇洒点，要活得有价值点！这样才不枉你家人辛辛苦苦把你养大嘛～

～Out of difficulties, makes miracle～

珍惜生命

刚刚不经意看到我很久以前朋友的blog，原来他之前也有在写blog。突然间感触很深。其实他已经离开了这个世界好几年了，不知现在的他是怎样的呢？还记得以前我和他很喜欢讲八卦，他有时会找我聊有时我找他。聊女人，聊咸色的也有（那时还是个刚在发育的小伙子嘛）。 还记得那时和他最后一次在msn聊的时候，他跟我说他其实很羡慕我们可以去kl college读书，他很想和我们一样只是因为他生病了，所以不能。 他是一个多么坚强的人，生病了还可以很勇敢很积极地面对。他从不放弃，虽然最后还是被病魔战胜了可是他的勇敢他的努力我还是依然记得。
虽然你已经不会再出现了，可是你那可爱的思想，捣蛋的脑袋，永远都会记在我心里。

大家要记住，要珍惜自己的生命。有些人他们是多么的想活在这个世界上可是他们没有得选择。而我们是有得选择就应该要活得更有价值，更有意义。他们有些是带着遗憾走的，所以我们每时每刻都要让自己活得有意义，不要让遗憾跟着我们一起走。

holiday mode

aiks.. although i m in holidays now n suppose i shud continue my final year project at home (thesis and my coming presentation) , but yet i did nothing.. arghhhh! how come?! i m damn worry abt tis but y i stil dnt wan to start it by now????? everyday use 12hours for sleeping.. goin to be entitled with "pig". i see my frenz rushing their thesis like "cow", i wish to be one of them too but too bad i jz couldnt.
these few days hv to help my mum around, coz indo maid balik kampung for 10days .. aduii..banyak kerjanya! "SULI cepat balik buat kerja ni, tak payah raya la..."
jz finished a drama, "痞子英雄" , frm taiwan.. highly recommended! wat a nice drama frm taiwan i had ever watched. it's totally different frm those "idol drama"(偶像剧）, very energetic, unexpected, and quite nervous when watching, although some scenes abit fake la..lol
since i hv KO tis drama, nxt wil be those awaiting hongkong series.. no doubt, my hobby is sitting infront of my laptop n watching drama, while watching better dnt kacau me or else i wil be very boh song! hehehe....
nw looking at the journals tat i gonna to read ...sienz~ some words are too deep to understand and even after checking dictionary, i stil dnt understand! am i so stupid?! or those scientists are too clever???can all the scientists write their journals in a simple way? so deep for wat ?! hard for referring la! ofcoz some of the journals are easy to understand, but some hardly to make me read on it! *i knw my english is lousy, LOL, should improve it*
last few days went to sing k with my frenz in penang redbox, damn expensive la wei... coz tat day was public holiday.. yet the room was so small... *jz 5 persons , hw big u want??!lol* tat time we took alot of pic ~ again.. haha.. but all the pic still not yet pass to my hand! jayjun n nicole, fast a bit la u two turtles..
here some of the pic tat i took by using nicole's hp. tis phone not that high tech, but the pics
damn nice, mayb it's blur enough?! hahaha...

自恋

here come with my cool photo..hahahahahahaha... paiseh la been long time didnt upload pic in my blog ady.. so ..... wakakakaka...

wow

saja

okay, i knw again my frenz wil say... "ur blog everywhere is ur photo, sienz nia" ... aiya, mayb others wont feel sienz ler? LOL!

swt, my mum is calling me again, hv to go now... update myself when i free again...... *sick for many days ady, nose blocking, i hate U!!!!*

BYEEEEEEEEE...MUACKSSSSSS!

累

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i m tired.. mentally n physically... two days non stop shaking my ass .. goin to collapse soon.. and finally i m in my hometown now.. my "holidays" has begun. but then tis is not a real holiday instead it is a week for me to complete my thesis n final year project things.. i m exhausted i nid a long break..

for those who stil asking me yyyy..wat happen.. y broke up.. ?????????? those question marks...
well... i knw u guys care of me.. i knw u guys wish to knw wat had happened btw me n her.. but wat i can say is...it has past... so stop asking me .. any reasonssss can be the reason to end the relationship .. eventhough tat reason might not be a reason... but it wil be a reason once problem occured... so jz let it be.. i wil keep it as a memory tat is enough.

wowwwww....thursday is coming..!!

yea yea yea...thursday, my last subjects for this sememster (physiology ii) ! this killing sememster! this fucking sememster! actually i feel a bit sad for my exam, coz obviously i cant get A for most of the subjects.. for a ppl like me, who always scores in exam sure wil feel not satisfy.. i always proud of myself when i showed my result transcripts to others! bcoz it's fulled with Asssss...( except for english subject ofcoz) but this sememster seems like wil be a worst sememster for me... if i could at least got 3As out of 5 subjectsss, i wil say thank to god! and also thank to the poor marking scheme! bcoz i knw tat some of the subjects are impossible for me to get an A (hardly to get B too)...if i could accidentally got As for these subjects, then i knw this is not the actual resutls i shuold have! ( low standard . should i say so?) but i stil hope that i can get many Asss.... contradictory @@
well.. dnt think too much, i dnt think i got such luck to score for some of the subjects.. since it has passed...so dnt think about it first.... after 1 month wil knw the result..kekekeke....

thursday nite= ladies nite... let's party...!! been long time didnt go club with frenz... this thursday wil be in maison! hope it wil be a great nite...coz i nvr join that gang to club b4.. dnt knw hw is them in club.. shud be fun?! i think so.. bcoz there is a funny guy (kent) .. he always a "laugh point" in my class... and so many galssss there (me: i m not pervert plzz)

saturday wil be goin bac to hometown...penang i m coming! mum wants me to buy so many mooncakesssss.... 5 boxessssss..... two for maid ( bcoz she is goin bac to indo soon) n 1 for grandma 2 for my house. poor..luckily my bageh sis pay for it... wakkakaka.... (pay for two boxes only)

18th , friday...wil go for movie (if my frenz stick to the plan, hope she wont break the promise, huiping! coz she is the 1 who always ppk).. aduhh.... money... money..i wan more money... i wan buy many things laaa...

continue my blog on friday la... if i free... ~~

sad

sad for my exam. sad x10000.... is the consequence of not enuf hardworking? haiz... today morning paper, was my worst day for these 4 years in college life...bcoz it was my first time for being so careless in exam, somemore i did not how to answer some of the questions.. how could this happen to me? i always thought tat this kind of situation wouldnt happen on me, but it happened! blank answer, wrong calculation, answered the question with nonsense. WTF... but i shud blame myself for not hardworking enuff in this semester.... i wont let it happen again, swear! *but if happened again then how? haha..*
still left two subjects to go... hopefully i can score on these. stil 1week to go.... then 2weeks holiday + 1week extra holiday for myself.. LOL..
two days slpt for 1 ++hours... nvr try b4? u guys hv to try on tis, freaking cool man! almost die.. tired x 1000000000000.............. want to hv a long long slp tonite... sunlight ,plz dnt too strong n plz dnt shine on me tml morning... i beg u..... ok?! :)))))))

unexpected

diu lorrr..... today papers... aikss... seems my As r flying away frm me.thought i can score this subject de mah..unexpected questions came out.. actually the questions for these two papers not very difficult... but then it needed long time to think n explain n write for the answer... 1paper for 2 hours with such questions was actually not enuff for me! hw abt if extra 1hour for me? dream of it la ... haha...dr.yue... plz mark it lineally..dnt be too strick in marking the papers... n hope u understand wat i wrote in the answers... haha... bcoz i hv not extra time to reread n recheck wat i hv written!

slept for 3hours.. then went for exam.. crazy.. but it is always my style since i entered college... sometimes i didnt sleep at all then straight go for the exam.... aiya..dnt care la..i also hv not much chances to take exam after next year feb(coz i wil be graduated) ..hohohoho...

tat day, my frenz asked me for shooting ...damn la i m having exam where got extra time to help him? somemore that shooting is kind of artistic shooting..need to wear very less (perhaps with underwear only)... seriously,i wished to help y9u..but i couldnt make it lorr..haha..i damn paiseh with tis kind of shooting as i knw i dnt hv a nice body shape...all the "muscles" like to stick together in my body...hw do i dare to go for tis???let ppl laugh meh!! if jz a normal shooting i wil stil consider mah.. with the clothes cover my body then i wil hv a very high confident in taking pic ... hahahaha...as i always tel myself i hv a handsome face!!!! *damn thick skin* he tried to persuade me for helping him, but failed at the end la... as i hv seen his art works.. damn geli la..too "artistic" and like those explicit photo (mayb i do not hv art sense gua) !! yet, this shooting is without payment... or does not have any benefits to me *help frenz still need to think tis, damn la u*.. so i considered again n again, finally decided not to help lor...1 of the reasons was exam period ...

shit, i stil not yet start any of notes for the coming subject! wasting my time infront of laptop again... drama, facebook, youtube...... gila babi memang! cannot cannot...hv to stop now.. i wil update myself again when i free.... aza aza fighting!


+U to every1 who struggling for the exam..must work hard, dnt be lazy like me... hehehe....

exam!!!!!!!!!!

damn... tml wil be my first paper for my final exam.... this exam wil be ended at 17th sept... the time is passing so slowly for this period! yyyy...... god bless me in my exam... wil be graduated soon, so popi me 顺顺利利... 不要有任何差错，留下遗憾...... my lifestyles for this moment is totally terbalik!!! get bac me my normal lifestyles plzzz.... there are still lotssss of hongkong series waiting me.. dnt wan to be outdated la ! come on! *keep talking to myself* ~~ cheh gong...becoming insane.

dr.yue, i wil KO u in these two papers tml! LOL...can i? ofcoz... *so lanci*

goodluck to everone who is having exam too! score score score! Assssssssss....endless Asssssss.... haha... i wan endless Asssss in my resultsssss...... plzzzz... ah ma popi.... malimali hoop....

gambateh~

梦

早上发了个梦，只是记得后半部。话说我跟一群朋友出去玩，我生日的前一天。在回家的路途，快要10pm了

kityin： 可怜咯，有人生日没人陪啊，孤孤单单一个人过生日 *嘴巴笑到很大，很欠打*

我： haiz...没有人愿意陪我嘛，没有女友是这样的咯。该要的桃花又不来，烂桃花就很多。*笑着说*

shirley（八婆）：一定是那些烂桃花有问题你才会不要吧（意思说很丑）不然你会这样好死不去找她们（意思说我很贱）。*几个人笑到很开心* ！！！（他看着我问我） 你说是不是？！ (妈的，好像很了解我这样！不过.........LOLz)

我： ............................无言。 （静了一下，然后笑到很大声，他们也跟着笑） （是不是我自己也承认了？？？？他妈的）

到了， 然后就各自回家。
回想着这个梦， 我在想我真的有那么贱吗？ 哈哈。。。 没有吧。 我不是那样的人咯！ shirley你不要自作聪明，不要五十步笑百步！ 可是好像没关到Shirley的事吧，是我自己要发的梦。 =.="

回归正题，明天又要回去kl了，本来是打算6号才回的，可是因为明天朋友生日所以.....其实很想不去了，然后send个msg给他“happy birthday ang jack sheng!!! very sorry la，cannot attend ur bday celebration, bcoz i stil in hometown... dnt worry, i owe u 1 meal!” 哈哈！ 可是还是不要啦，早回去也是好的，因为有很多notes读不明白需要朋友帮忙！ jack sheng 你看！ 我几有心！！！！！ 哈哈。。。不要太感动哦，我会paiseh的。 LOL

其实我还有很多东西要跟大家分享，可是因为我正在面临着考试的威胁，所以我会先好好的温习。我一考完，就会来这里写个“长长” 的部落格。 名为“感情” 。 有没有吸引到你们？ 哈哈，快跟我说有！！ 不然我就没有那个mood去写了啦啦啦啦...................