lonely

i m mr.loney, i hv nobody......
i m going to crazy soon, hope these two months can pass faster!! i wan move bac to penang.....
i cant stand the life in kl, it's sux..... i cant hv any entertaintment ( only wil get it if i spend money), that's not what i want!
i hope i can fly very soon, so i hv more time to go back penang!
althouhg i m enjoying the training..but i still....
sometimes feel how good if i hv a gf now, at least i wont be lonely, n she at least can talk to me, share with me...
i hv no idea when this "she" will only appear infront of me? am i too choosy? i dnt think so, jz i dnt wan to be too flirty, dnt like to mix and hv FUN around with those gals... i can do that if i wanted to.... i knw that is not the way to get rid of the loneliness..

been admired HER for so long times, but i still hv no guts to go after her, i scare of the responsiblity to be a bf, i worry that is not the right time to get a gf, i worry that she might not have the same thinking as mine... i worry this n that all because i hv no confident on relationship, i worry i wil ruin every relationship as what i did previously.... so i keep myself for single for so long time... n this causes many ppl thought i m gay.. >.<" ... pls stop asking me am i gay, i m not ..... i m straight pls... i need gals too as wat the other guys do.. just i m waiting for the right person with the right timing....

shall i let her knw what m i thinking of her? she is far away frm me now... i dnt think so is a right time to tel her..... although sometimes i feel like she is no longer in my heart , but sometimes she is in there! how come? i wonder ..... i always want to knw what she is doing now, who is chasing her now, is she stil available.... sometimes i can feel that she is giving me chance, but i jz dnt take any action....how stupid am i.... mayb being frenz with her too long time ady???? everything in my mind i couldnt speak it out when i m with her...
can some1 tell me why like this? can some1 tel me what should i do? go for others instead of "parking" myself at this unmovable "place" ?

stop thinking this again la! wake up ....
is not the time....

i miss my lao bu mia laksa, mee...... swt......