wanna go back kl base

as stated in the title...
i wanna go back kl base so badly....
last two weeks actually ady found someone to swap with me, but suddenly she told me her marriage got problem, cannot swap with me now... wtf.. y dnt after swapping with me ur marriage only got problem?? (sounds i m so bad, it shows that how wish i can go back kl base)

hmmm... reasons are simple
kl more suitable to me (after comparing)
i should hv to listen those advises given by friends, crews, and also our executives...
but nvr try nvr knw, once i tried, i knw how it tastes!
not to say working in penang is bad, just too much of gossips, and boring. lack of motivation...
not feel like goin to work everytime.
last time when i was in kl, everyday feel like going for war.. wil prepare everything before flight... but now, i got no motivation at all! coz working here is way too relax... flying with the same crew most of the time! is good for ppl who are lazy... but definately not me.
and working style is different for everyone of them, have think wisely before u do something or say something... unlike kl, everything just follow SOP (standard operation procedures)
stil got few main reasons i want to go back kl, but no need to mention here..

no doubt, i enjoy staying at my hometown sleep everyday with my own bed.. this is the only things i like in penang...
but think carefully, i have to think of my future, if i really wan to continue in this field.. i have to go back kl.. no matter how.
so now i just have to wait for someone who willing to swap with me again... mayb it takes few more months or even a year.. hopefully it wont be so long! pleaseeee......

chin soo kye! please persuade ur frenz kim to swap with me, she is interested just need more support from youuuuuuuuuuu...!! haha... ( let me knw if u r reading this)

crews keep asking me why wanna back to kl, some said i m stupid, itchy, and many more.. but who cares?! coz i really wan to go bac

anyway, praying god hard .. pls send someone to swap with me asap.. dnt wan to work here anymore.. i wil be demotivated soon ..

ok stop talking abt this

well, obviously recently my mood is like roller coaster, up and down.. dnt knw why?
i think should start learning how to control my feeling toward anything...
sometimes things come out from my mouth might not be that meaning...
i might say fuck you all the times, but it doesnt mean i really wan to fuck you, understand?
i know some words that came out from my mouth might hurt ppl unintentionally, but.....
if i say i hate you, doesnt mean that i really hate you, just....(how to express it.... ?)
but if i say i hate that fucker very much, means i really hate that!
confusing....
dnt knw what i m talking about... fuck

better sleep..