矛盾的人生

是时候update一下这个部落格了
下个星期又要回kl做工了，啊啊啊啊！！ 不想回啦
现在有点后悔申请回去！哈哈哈 （超级矛盾）
不喜欢在那边的生活
没有家庭的温暖
吃东西也要烦
住在自己的家多好！老妈煮好就吃，不需要烦要去哪里吃
在家什么都有
在那边要做样东西也麻烦！
可是如果我没有回去的话，前途是黑暗！矛盾的人生
我的朋友昨天帮我预算了生活开销在槟城和kl， 其实算到来存到的钱都差不多！kl 的开销太大了
烦啊虽然在kl能赚多一点点！
好不容易已经适应了这边做工环境，跟全部的同事也打成一片！现在要离开反而有点舍不得！
之前不了解以为他们个个都很坏可是相处久了觉得他们个个都是好人
现在要回到那战战兢兢的kl office每天和不一样的人做工，真的有点怕。哪个是人是鬼都不懂！
没关系，忍多几年，我还是会回来槟城的。因为这里才是我要永久住下来的地方。
为了前途，一定要牺牲虽然不舍得！

加油 :)

stop

that day, i told shirley.. feel like goin to stop blogging.. coz very lazy .. and somemore not really got ppl wil read.. haha..
she said she likes to read my blog, coz she always smile n laugh when reading.. izzit??
tell me should i stop writting or continue? hehe.
sometimes feel like no point writting here.. but sometimes when i really get bored or nothing to do, i wil feel like to blog..

well, today standby didnt get called up, i wonder what if they called me this morning? i slept at abt 2am bcoz chatting with one of my frenz.. i nvr set the alarm... and my standby started at 3.30am.. i slept deadly at that time i guess... even if they called me i guess i wouldnt answer???! luckily... and straight slept for 11hours... been so long nvr have a good sleep like this, so my mood today is very good... wanna sleep for another few more hours later...wakakaka... to recharge back all my energy :)

when you hv positve thinking, all the good things wil follow you...^^

wanna go back kl base

as stated in the title...
i wanna go back kl base so badly....
last two weeks actually ady found someone to swap with me, but suddenly she told me her marriage got problem, cannot swap with me now... wtf.. y dnt after swapping with me ur marriage only got problem?? (sounds i m so bad, it shows that how wish i can go back kl base)

hmmm... reasons are simple
kl more suitable to me (after comparing)
i should hv to listen those advises given by friends, crews, and also our executives...
but nvr try nvr knw, once i tried, i knw how it tastes!
not to say working in penang is bad, just too much of gossips, and boring. lack of motivation...
not feel like goin to work everytime.
last time when i was in kl, everyday feel like going for war.. wil prepare everything before flight... but now, i got no motivation at all! coz working here is way too relax... flying with the same crew most of the time! is good for ppl who are lazy... but definately not me.
and working style is different for everyone of them, have think wisely before u do something or say something... unlike kl, everything just follow SOP (standard operation procedures)
stil got few main reasons i want to go back kl, but no need to mention here..

no doubt, i enjoy staying at my hometown sleep everyday with my own bed.. this is the only things i like in penang...
but think carefully, i have to think of my future, if i really wan to continue in this field.. i have to go back kl.. no matter how.
so now i just have to wait for someone who willing to swap with me again... mayb it takes few more months or even a year.. hopefully it wont be so long! pleaseeee......

chin soo kye! please persuade ur frenz kim to swap with me, she is interested just need more support from youuuuuuuuuuu...!! haha... ( let me knw if u r reading this)

crews keep asking me why wanna back to kl, some said i m stupid, itchy, and many more.. but who cares?! coz i really wan to go bac

anyway, praying god hard .. pls send someone to swap with me asap.. dnt wan to work here anymore.. i wil be demotivated soon ..

ok stop talking abt this

well, obviously recently my mood is like roller coaster, up and down.. dnt knw why?
i think should start learning how to control my feeling toward anything...
sometimes things come out from my mouth might not be that meaning...
i might say fuck you all the times, but it doesnt mean i really wan to fuck you, understand?
i know some words that came out from my mouth might hurt ppl unintentionally, but.....
if i say i hate you, doesnt mean that i really hate you, just....(how to express it.... ?)
but if i say i hate that fucker very much, means i really hate that!
confusing....
dnt knw what i m talking about... fuck

better sleep..

confused

i m so so so confused now!
what x 1000? why x 10000? how x 100000? arghhhhhhhhhh....

i m lost.. lost to nowhere! floating on the sea!
gueesing everytime, but pretending like nothing..

this is well describes me ? rubbish means many worries, boat without direction..

Please pull me to the port where i should belong to....to secure and calm myself.
can u?

finally i booked my car!

teeheeee... finally i've booked my car today.. toyota vios E spec..

again... white colour! looks more class... haha

hmmm... but i hv to wait for 6 to 8 weeks to get the car! no stock at this moment, due to the tsunami that hit japan last few months! all the car producers in japan got affected! and toyota was one of them...

some of you might wondering y i wil get vios at last? but not forte or honda city?! haha... i was confused too..i love forte so much, but petrol consuming n no market value! honda city i love it too but expensive than vios abt rm11k, but performance is similar to vios... jz the outlook different.. i asked opinion frm frenz of mine, honda city or vios better?
his answered : no much different, just like you ask me different between airbus 320 and boeing 737 (type of aircraft models).. no one lose.. they are similar just different producer..
it reminds me, y i must pay extra rm11k to get the city ? hmmmm.....

anyway, i hope that i've made the right choice, coz this is my first car in my life, i bought by myself without getting a cent from family!
u must be healthy all the time, i got no much money to send you to hospital for treatment like the car i m using now! hahaha...

finished packing! my bkk trip's mood is ON! yes, i m going to bkk tml ! i m super excited.. nvr been there before, but so many of them told me bkk is a heaven ! hope it's a REAL heaven for me la... although just short stay, 3 days two nites, but it would be enough for me!!!! BKK i m coming =)

iphone 4

hehehe.. yea i got my iphone4 already....jz got it last week n my frenz suggested me to get the white one since it's just launched. n yes, i got the white 1... haha...

one word to comment on iphone4 : GREAT!
i m so addicted to it now... n now i truely understand why ppl with iphone or blackberry will keep pressing the hp nonstop like they cant live without hp...i used to say them stupid but now i become one of them..hahaa... like siao kia.. but i love it.. it makes ppl getting closer to each others..

so many applications to use, n they all r so nice to use...
i m stil in the learning process anyway... bcoz it's quite complicated to me, but i stil like it... wakaka....

recently keep spending... spending n spending... hv to find a way to stop it please....
wah stil need to get a car for myself this month.. but i hvnt booked yet la... officially broke!!!!!
i need more money... gv me more money pls..gv me more flights more excess money!! hahaha...

Langkawi

another trip with my secondary schools' friends!
been so long we nvr gather together n go for trip like this! the last trip i remembered was 6 years ago after we graduated frm kerian.

the idea actually came out from me while few of us were on the way to movie (scream4), coz so coincidence that many of them got few days off ( public holiday)... so shifang and weitatt (the organizers) started to find friends to join us! n response was good! many of them were joined us.. they did a lot of researches regarding the hotel, island payah, all the fees.. (appreciated), i didnt join for the discussion bcoz i hv to work .. so i jz followed what they said.. lol.. i like this kind of trip coz i no need to use my brain to think where to go where to stay where to spend our time!!!!! you guys did a great job anyway :)

too bad i was too tired, woke up at 3.30am on saturday morning ( i reached home after working at 1am) n headed to parit buntar to meet them up with a long face...
after picking up everyone, abt 5.30am.. we then headed to kuala kedah to take ferry to langkawi! although i was so tired but with them again i couldnt sleep at all coz all the way talk talk talk and talk! lol

the looks of tiredness

in the ferry to langkawi island

reached the jetty n immediately we took another boat to go payah island
on another boat to go the beach

after an hour journey, we finally reached our destination!! the water there is crystal clear! i love this alottttts!!

with life jackets

after taking few pictures there, we started snorkeling!! yea yea... many fishes, sea urchins and many more... too bad junzhe not dare to swim too far away frm beach, hahaha... but few of us swim far far away frm the beach, n we saw alot of different species fishes underwater!

i always love swim in a crystal clear water!

feeding fishes

too bad, the island does not hv pipe water to let us take shower so we all hv to go back with a salted body... lol... after we done our snorkeling, the ppl there started to feed sharks!!!! yea this is why the island is famous in malaysia.. coz there got lot small sharks ( not really small though)...
abt 3pm, we then headed back to langkawi island ..

everyone was so exhausted, went back to hotel ... 9 of us stayed in 1 hotel room!! can you imagine? hahahaha.... siao 1!
took a rest in hotel for awhile, then went for dinner with the lao ya Odyssy.

then we went to town area jalan jalan... camwhoring along the beach... drinking beer... obviously i m not a good drinker! haha...

back to hotel sleep then... but too much of noises they made! we couldnt sleep well at all, i didnt join them for the game, bcoz i was too tired... but end up i woke up n sleep bac for at least 50times..

the next day we checked out frm the hotel earier, then we went to some souvenir shops to get some chococlates, beer to bring home... the sun was too hot for me, fuck it! too much of choices, made us took so long time to choose this n that, comparing the prices frm one shop to the others...swt..

the trip was goin to end soon, but b4 ending.... took some photos as a remembrance at somewhere around the jetty there.

we were forced to smile BIG BIG

lol

nice

the sun was too hot!!!

but fuck my life, on the way back.. the ferry's aircon was spoiled! i almost die in the cabin... kept sweating... was too hot! but they never inform us anything nor apologize for this ! what a sux management they have, if there is a customer care counter,i sure be the first one to make a complaint...

anyway, i enjoyed the trip.. thanks for organizing this, hope we can go for another trip soon...